This is kinda what being on ketamine in the hospital was like. That wasn’t as scary, though. #delirium
This is a new work in progress. I’m pretty sure that this song will end up on my next record in a more refined form.
I’m feeling much more normal and inspired these days—where just a few weeks ago it took real effort to walk around for more than a few moments, now I can walk about a mile before feeling really beat. My wounds are healing up nicely, too. Reconsidering the title of this next record—I was thinking I might call it “The Way We Love Now,” but now I’ve googled that and of course several people already thought up that play on words.
I was released from the hospital today. Feeling relatively crappy still, but so, so happy to be out and be with my folks in their peaceful home, and feeling better every day. Surgery was a resounding success. There will be one more surgery when I’m all healed up again, but it is not an urgent one, and it will be relatively minor in scope compared to what I just endured/am enduring in terms of pain and healing. The pathology did not find any cancer in what was extracted—just a bunch of other crap that needed to be taken out. The surgery was really long (over 24 hours) and threw me for quite a loop, but I’m weeks ahead of schedule in terms of where I’m at, healing-wise, according to my urologists. There’s a little remaining bit of teratoma behind my liver that needs to be taken care of, but for now the mission is to get healthy and strong again and then to deal with the stuff behind the liver when the timing is right. I can’t wait to be back playing music again—right now I’m a little too weak and groggy to get anything done, but I haven’t done anything fun in weeks and so the prospect of a little creativity is a nice one. I’m thin as a stick right now, and yet I’m on a low-fat diet for the time being for some complicated post-operation reasons, so if anyone has any high calorie, high protein, low-fat recipes that they want to pass on, I would really appreciate it. I’m looking like Steve Jobs in his skeletor phase and would like to avoid thinning out any more in the time that I have to be on this diet.
I was really out of it and disconnected while in the hospital this time, so if you tried to get in touch with me, I’m sorry for not responding. I’m going through my e-mails now. I hope you’re all doing really well, and can’t wait to see you.